I don’t take plant medicines—not because I’m against them, but because I’m already prone to hallucinations without any chemical help. I’ve got a history of slipping into bliss states when the environment is right: beauty immersion, simple prayerful moments, spontaneous rituals, or long athletic efforts.

But at a friend’s suggestion, I agreed to try a THC gummy to help with my spotty sleep. First try—nothing. Second try—I doubled the dose. And then…I fell completely apart. In the most marvelous way; I became a pile of molecules in a sea of molecules and it was all interchangeable.

The experience imprinted me with a kind of pure joy that I think must be rooted in a true “there is no other” experience. I’m different now, closer to my true nature and more delighted to be human than ever.

Sincere thanks to my gummy pushing friend, you know who you are.

Because this wasn’t something I planned, because it was accidental, it had a different quality; research shows us that pleasant surprises land especially well in the human nervous system. I’m still unpacking the systems, the grids, the geometry of insight that showed up during those hours. I’m still living with the awareness that we are indeed formless.

There were a few tricky moments—I was so formless, I couldn’t move and couldn’t quite figure out how to re-gather myself into form for a while. But somehow, through that, I’ve become more committed to this amazing body I get to live in. I feel like I can “stir” the molecules of Life more easily. My sense of humor and magic is deepened.

It also has me thinking: most of the most important moments in my life have happened by “accident.” Not slapstick accidents—but divine ones. Right place, right time. Or wrong place, right time. Either way, never quite by force of will or effort.

So again I am compelled to ask: How do we balance doing and being? How do we show up and participate while holding the paradox that none of this may matter as much as we think it does? States of passivity or extreme agitation are not useful and have become so commonplace we hardly notice it in ourselves or each other…

The invitation of the molecules is to go deeper. To get underneath. To stop settling for growth-lite and instead go for true movement, true healing, true change. That’s the work I’m here to support. That’s what I stand for: real striving, real transformation—with a healthy dose of humor, play, and en-lighten-ment.

Let’s lighten up—together.

Maybe you’ll join me next Friday night, as we clear some cobwebs, shake off the nonsense, and open to the possibility of being more alive, more present, more connected.